She sat, staring at the wall in front of her, in the darkened room in her town house in Gotham's trendy Park Ridge district. Barbara had lived here for a good two or three years now, and she'd had Batman build it to her specifications when she first moved in, complete with a secret room for all of her Batgirl stuff. She had loved this place more than any other place she had ever lived, more so because she had it bought it on her own and made it on her own.
She lovingly ran a hand over the thick, black kevlar and nomex weave that had made her last Batgirl uniform, one that she hadn't worn in at least six months. Her bare fingers ran over the bright yellow bat-shaped emblem that was made of the same weave, tears burning her eyes and streaming down her cheeks, falling on the waterproof uniform. She had given up being Batgirl over a year ago, she knew, but it was the costume that was the most painful reminder of who she had once been, of what she had once been able to do.
Things that she would never do again.
Her father, James Gordon, had called her repeatedly, asking her to go out with him to dinner, or maybe spend a weekend in the Hamptons, courtesy of Bruce Wayne, but Barbara hadn't been feeling up to it. She hadn't been feeling up to much of anything, but how could anyone blame her? Joker had come up to her father's home, had knocked on their door, and had shot her in the spine. Not only that, but then Joker had also taken her, stripped her down, and taking pictures of her for her father's viewing displeasure. He had taken more of her than any man ever had, and now Barbara was denied that revenge which she so strongly needed, that revenge which she so strongly desired.
She laughed a small, bitter laugh for a moment. She understood, now, the same drive that had pushed Bruce and Dick into their respective costumes. Unlike them, she had become Batgirl not for vengeance but for...for what? Fun? A higher sense of duty? It had happened quite by accident, intitially, but the thrill of it had drawn her in. She couldn't stop, and she had sought out the help of Batman, Robin, and the Black Canary.
But that was all besides the point, now. She was broken. She was broken, and she didn't have the spirit to go on, any longer. She just...she didn't know what she wanted any more. She wasn't stupid enough to wish for death, but she didn't know what it was she wished for. Except for revenge.
Which wouldn't happen any time soon.
"The Barbara I knew wouldn't wish for revenge," a voice suddenly spoke up. Using her hands, Barbara wheeled around, her bright eyes alert. She wiped the tears from her eyes and cheeks.
"Who's there?" Barbara asked, doing her best to keep her voice firm and strong. She succeeded and she was proud of that.
"God, Barbara, don't you remember? I was your best friend." A figure stepped out of the shadows, a figure that Barbara could barely make out. It was female, that much was certain, with long, curly blonde hair and alabaster skin. The figure moved closer and Barbara saw the Superman shield blazoned across a very female chest.
"Who?" Barbara asked, furrowing her eyebrows. "Kara?" she asked, after a moment, unsure, uncertain. Kara who? Barbara didn't know anyone named Kara. Right?
The mysterious voice didn't answer Barbara's question. Instead, it continued on and said, "The Crisis changed everything, didn't it?" Notes of sullen sadness playing across her sweet voice. "Even you, Barbara. You were so happy, so full of life. This wasn't supposed to be your destiny. You were going to become a Senator, and eventually maybe even Batwoman before you became Commissioner of the Gotham City Police Department."
Barbara stared at the mysterious figure in a mix of mild fascination and fear. Some of these things that the girl talked about, they had been dreams of Barbara's, dreams that she had felt were shattered by the incident with Joker. How, then...?
"Who are you?" Barbara asked again, her voice firm. She needed to know if this was someone, something, that she was going to have to fight, or someone that she was going to have to sic Batman on. "Tell me, tell me now or I swear I will call Batman here right now to -"
"I'm Supergirl," the figure said, stepping completely out of the shadows. "Or at least, I was, until the universe reset itself." She shrugged and gave Barbara a bright smile. "I don't know if there will be another one of me in this world, but that doesn't matter right now. All that matters is that you can't do this to yourself."
"Do what to myself?"
"This. Taking pity on yourself, losing yourself to despair. You're above that, you're better than that. You had such a strong, forceful spirit, Barbara. Losing your legs shouldn't change that. My death didn't change my spirit from being who I always had been, I don't understand why you -"
"Your death?" Barbara asked, intrigued. "I don't understand." This was a lie, of course. Barbara was beginning to understand what this mysterious Supergirl was talking about, and it was starting to disturb her.
"It doesn't matter if you do, Barbara. I'm not supposed to be here, and when I'm gone, you won't remember me having visited you."
The figure that Barbara now knew to be Kara shrugged again, the same painful smile across her features. "But that's alright, because you'll remember what I said as thoughts of your own. Pick yourself up, Barbara Gordon, and be the strong woman we both know you are. The Greek prophet Cassandra was crippled by her curse, but she never thought beyond that curse. She never saw how she could make that curse work to her advantage. Don't make that same mistake, Barbara. Don't let this incident with the Joker cripple you from fulfilling a destiny beyond the one seemingly prophesized for you." Supergirl turned around then, staring off into space at something Barbara couldn't see. Then, "I have to go. The Spectre is getting angry for my having broken the rules twice, now. Please Barbara, if not for your own sake, than for mine, for the friend you lost and will never remember, please don't let this affect you. Carve your own destiny and make your future as bright as it should be," the spirit said as it came up to Barbara. She gave Barbara a swift, gossamer kiss on the forehead before it shimmered out of Barbara's living room.
Barbara stared at the spot where the girl, Supergirl, had stood only moments ago, lost deep in thought. She was right, of course. Barbara was better than this. She always had been. Moping around and crying weren't things a Gordon did. The Gordon spirit was made of much stronger stuff than that. And she understood what Supergirl...Super...who?
Had Superman just visited?
Barbara shook her head. She must have been daydreaming. The daydreaming must have helped, though. She would do what Cassandra had never done. She would hide behind the guise of an Oracle so that people would take notice of her and listen to her. Yes, that is what she would do. Barbara Gordon refused to stay down, broken, and dispirited.
Muse: Barbara Gordon/Oracle
Fandom: Birds of Prey
Words: 1247